I will probably never understand how difficult this has been for Tala. We know she had a lot of anxieties. She simply didn't understand why her mommy couldn't come home from the hospital. She, in her own 5 year old way, understood when things were serious for Rach. When things got to much, she would cling to us and she wouldn't let us leave the room. She knew when mommy was to sick that she couldn't cuddle with her in the hospital bed. She would turn to grandma and grandpa for lot's of love. Our heart hurt for her. She was afraid but didn't have the words to express what was happening to her tiny little heart. We tried to fill the hole that mommy was leaving but it was never like the comfort that only a mom can give. For so long, Rach was lost in a fogged mind, at times battling for her own life but had little strength or awareness to give much to anyone, even Tala. It wasn't Rach's fault, it was the vile disease robbing Rach and was stealing from her little baby too.
This morning, I awoke to Rach wanting to come up the stairs. At 4:50am, I wasn't about to argue, I just helped her up and sat her in "my chair" in our bedroom. Rach just settled in and watched a bit of TV. I think she dozed off shortly before I drifted back to sleep. A short time later, I awoke to another visitor to our room, Tala. Her usual morning visit ended up being different this time, it wasn't Tala asking to cuddle with grandma. She didn't ask for breakfast or want grandpa to turn cartoons on for her. She quietly, but very naturally nestled into her mothers arms. No words were spoken, for Rach and Tala, the bond had been reconnected. The love was tangible, peaceful and not contrived. I sat back and watched them snuggle together. Their love enveloped them both and allowed them both to quickly drift off to sleep.
More importantly, once again, the world was right for Tala.
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Hi George, Liisa, Rachael, Jordan, Paige and Tala, (whew! what a long list!)
I just found out from Amanda yesterday about everything that's going on, and trust me, I have been praying! It sounds like things are on their way up and I'm thanking God for that. What a sweet story of Tala being able to cuddle with Mama again today...what grace! I will be leaving Saturday for Africa, but if possible I'd love to bring Rach some flowers tomorrow...I'll call in the morning around 10. May you all be blessed and held in the mighty arms of our Savior! He does miracles, huh!?
Still praying for Rach,
Elisa Briesmeister
Hi Elisa, feel free to come by the house. Rach would love to have some visitors.
I keep inviting her to watch some baseball with me and telling her she loved baseball before she got sick. She's still not buying it. ;)
It says tons about you Bro.
To be able to have the insight,to be able to see and identify the tenderness and reconnection between Tala and Rach. Your words are extremely touching and poignant.
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